I left an abusive job for what seemed like a great career move only to immediately fall flat on my face. I was hired under false pretenses and the company went through a reorg five months in. According to my research, being at a job less than a year shaves 15 years off of your work experience. I didn't want to believe it, but it's turned out to be true. I've applied to over 400 jobs in two months. I've been turned away after admitting I was laid off. I've had 6 recruiters and hiring managers simply ghost me after what I thought were good interviews.
My life ended July 15th, 2022 when I was laid off. This week, I completely lost hope. I sleep all day every day because I am only happy in my dreams. When I'm not sleeping, I'm crying. I'm mourning for the children my finace and I will now never have. I'm mourning for the house I thought we'd buy. I'm mourning for the vacations I thought I'd take. I thought I would be starting a family by the end of the year, but instead I'm starting my career from scratch in my 30s because the lay-off rendered my experience useless. My fiance would be better off without me as I'm just going to drag us down with my lack of income.
I really don't see a future for myself that entails more meaningful time. I have nothing to look forward to anymore.