I recently got a high-paying management trainee job that was very much sought after. I didn't know how I got it in the first place but everyone around me were convinced that I've struck gold and that I'm in a very privileged position that no one else is in. (I am a recent graduate and this is my first job)
It has only been less than two weeks in this company but I was already asked to put in lots of overtimes (that can't be claimed, because my salary is already 'too high'). One of those days, I had to stay in and work until 3 in the morning and come back the next day at 7 30 am.
This is made worse by the fact that I live almost 2 hours away from work. So the amount of hours I had to stay in the office, along with the time I spend in the train takes up most of my day. All that I get to do once I come home is eat my dinner and go to sleep.
I tried to talk about this with the other management trainees that got in at the same time as I did but I don't think they feel the same way at all. Sometimes I feel like they think I'm being too dramatic. My peers are serious corporate climbers and they would do anything to be at the top.
I also tried to talk to my friends and family about how stressed out I am but again, nobody could sympathise. They all say I'm lucky enough to be able to get as much as i do but i really don't think its worth it at this point.
There is really no reason why I'm posting this here, but i really need someone to understand where I'm coming from so that i wont feel dramatic and insane. I'm on the verge of tears as I type this during yet another OT