Dealing with customers has made me hate working. I hate people now. Dealing with customers that are upset at something that I can’t help if extremely mentally exhausting especially when you pile on all the other every day stresses like trying to keep everything thing, clothes washed and bless it if you can even have the time to fold and put up the clean clothes, trying to raise a kid while also working full time and then being the only one to do the majority of the chores.
Then not to mention I’m deeply resentful of the fact that I HAVE to work and i know people that don’t have to work and are still putting their 3 month old in daycare. Like I want to tell them you’re never going to get this time back. They’re only babies for so long.
Then to top it off I feel like a failure to my kid because I HAVE to work, I let my 6 year old have a summer break she was A/B honor roll for Kindergarten year but come back this year and (in my opinion they’re really expecting too much from 6/7 year olds and the homework workload has tripled over last year) struggling with her school work now. And I just feel like a failure because I didn’t have the time to really try and work with her and that I didn’t put her in summer school. That I wanted her to enjoy her break, for both of us to have an enjoyable break from having to get up and going early and then just having to go go go like energizer bunnies.
I just wish I could go to something part time or a 4 day work week. I’m just getting burnt out with everything I have on my plate.