I am disabled. I have been fighting this disability for years and every time I have a hand on it, something happens and my disabilities make managing it 100x harder. I am privileged enough to be on my parents insurance, but I don’t know what I’d do if they didn’t help me pay the copays. I have also been lucky enough to ride by on loans for college, but now I’m close to graduating and I have no idea what to do. My body cannot tolerate a greater than 40 hour workweek. It literally makes my brain stop working and all my symptoms flare to the point where I cannot function. I can’t even get my school to let me make up a test I missed due to my symptoms, how am I supposed to work full time without offing myself? All I want to do is make money for me and my wife to live comfortably. Fuck I don’t even care if we ever have kids or go on the trips we dream of. I just want to not feel SO desperate all the time. I want my wife to actually be able to go to the doctor so I don’t have to feel horrible about every PT appointment. I want to comfortably pay bills, buy food, and maybe do something nice every once in awhile. I cannot believe how far out of reach those things feel. This cannot be the way the world is supposed to work, Things feel so fucking bleak right now.