Little rant, you don't have to read. A lot of you were congradulating me two weeks ago for getting a new job as a cashier. Its been iffy, and ill explain, but i thought it was still going well.
I got my first write. Ya see, you have to be either over or under your till count by at least $3 to get a write up. Today, after pulling a double shift (9AM-5PM) against what my agreed hours were supposed to be, i ended up with $5.01 over. Im struggling to comprehend it. Its not my first cashier job by any means and I've never had this issue at this job or any other up until now. Not only that, 90% of customers today A) gave me exact change so I wouldn't have to give them anything except whole bills or B) used a card for their purchases. And unlike most days, NOBODY told me to keep change. I'm not stupid. My whole life has been counting exact change, either for work or for myself because I've always had to worry about making every penny count.
By my own calculations, if I'd started with a $75 till (not counted by me, was counted before i got into work by a manager) i wouldn't only be 45c over, give or take. Now I'm searching through every bit of memory trying to figure out when i could have possibly gotten THAT far over.
I'm crying. Im drinking. I go back to work at 9AM, to once again be the only person on shift, to bust my ass with summer/4th of july packup (you wouldn't believe how much i put up today and i didn't even get half done) and put out at least 25 cases and man the register with little to no help. No amount of nicotine can fix this right now. I know there's no way i went over tha much, but the computer doesn't lie, right?
I feel numb but also broken. I'm only in my third week. My second week was TWO DAYS (only 10hrs) and my check came up much, much shorter than i was needing. After bills, diapers and wipes, toilet paper? That $248 check is now $6 and i got paid four days ago. If i get two more write ups, no matter how it happens, I get fired.
I don't think i can handle this pressure when i KNOW i did nothing wrong and I KNOW how much my till should've been at the end of the day. And all i got from my manager? “That's just how it is.”
I hope i catch covid within the next twelve hours so i can stay home.