I'm a college sophomore. Didn't do non-school related things my freshman year. I'm first generation (meaning I have zero connections), I have crippling social anxiety so I physically can't network with people, I don't know how to make a resume or cover letter, I have negative charisma. Despite this, I've gotten a sudden burst of motivation and have been trying to work harder this school year. And yet, MICRO-internships, not even internships, god damn MICRO-internships want a resume plus an interview. I'm applying for the experience bruh. I'm applying for the resume building. I'm applying to get references. I hate this fucking world. tf am I supposed to do bruh, I have no experience other than coursework and 2 personal projects, and my anxiety is going to make me bomb every fucking interview I do. I've made a genuine effort to improve my social anxiety. I've taken 8 public speaking courses on top of all the presentations I've done in every single class, and yet my social anxiety has improved by NOTHING, ZERO, NULL. I despise everything about being an adult in this world. This is so stupid bro, I just want to survive and take care of my parents when I'm older bruh. Everybody who knows me has complimented me for being “smart” but that's literally all I have, I'm good at taking tests, a skill that is quickly expiring in usefulness. I have nothing else going for me and its seriously paralyzing me. Someone please make me uninstall roblox and end me.