I learn through trial and error. If there's an obstacle that comes, I'm capable of improvising a solution. But it's not fast enough for the person I work for. I try to be faster but I make more mistakes. I have mild neurological issues causing the delayed thinking that I had to hide just to get this job but it's getting harder to hide.
I've struggled with being employed my whole life due to this subtle disability discrimination. This is my first full time permanent job that offers benefits that I need. I can't get fired but I feel that I will.
I can't win and I hate that.