I have been at my current job about seven months and it’s been increasingly hard to shake it off at the end of the day. Even though they tell me I’m doing a good job the managers yell and belittle everyone. When I ask questions so that I can learn more about the business I’m told it’s “none of my concern”. I’m getting more and more anxious and I am having a hard time interacting with anyone because honestly I’m just trying to keep it together.
Cut to this morning.. I found out that the one coworker I thought was nice was talking about me behind my back and saying I was rude to her. I asked her about it and told her I was having some personal stuff that was making me feel like I just had to keep my head down and do my job and I was going to apologize but then she said “I don’t care about your personal life”. I got mad and raised my voice and told her maybe you should have some compassion for other people.
Now I’m mad at myself for not keeping my feelings in check and disappointed that I have yet another job where management gives you very little instruction on how to do your job and feels that yelling at and making fun of employees is acceptable.
I don’t think I can go back there again.