Hi I’m 22(F) and I work at a real estate law firm as a paralegal. I’ve been working here for 5 months since I’ve been out of college. I’m not the most detail- oriented person, but I thought that I can handle all these clerical tasks (It doesn’t really take a genius to edit word documents or clock in a payment).
I graduated with a 3.9 in Criminal Justice, but this job makes me feel so dumb. I loved school, I felt like it was something I was good at and it made me feel heard and seen. I hate working. I’m writing this feeling like I’m going to sob on the bus ride home. I make $42,000 a year and it is barely enough to live outside my parents home and I’m stressed. I don’t need a living salary right now because my parents are willing to help me out (fortunately), but I thought that with all my hard work in school I’d at least be able to save up for when I do want to move out and buy a home, etc.
Today I accidentally deposited a check into a bank account the attorneys at my job don’t really use. They were livid. I got the cold shoulder all day and unfortunately I am not good at hiding my nerves and it manifested in me making even more errors.
I am dreading waking up tomorrow and going to work. I called my dad and asked if he thinks they would fire me and he usually reassures me that I’m overthinking, but this time he said “I would edit your resumé if I were you and we can look for government jobs.” That made me tremble. Idk what to do