every job i’ve ever had i’ve had to quit after a few months. i’ve been out of work since march and living with my parents and this is just another in a long line of positions i’ve been unable to keep for whatever reason.
i don’t know if i have some mental disability i don’t know about but working in retail (my only work experience) leads to some of my worst depressive episodes and panic attacks ever. i don’t know what to do, i want to get a job if only it’ll make my parents not think i’ll be worthless and living with them for my whole life.
i know people say not to place your value on your employment but what can i do?? if i don’t work i’m a drain on the system and a burden to my family. if i do work, i spiral into depression and the cycle of me getting a retail job, quitting, living off dwindling savings and repeating will continue forever.
besides retail the only thing i have going for me is my art degree i’m hoping to get this year. but with how the industry is going i feel like i wasted my time and money if i wanted to make it career. i don’t really have any other passions or career paths. i think about some but they’re all hypothetical and/or things i would need schooling for. now i’m close to having a useless degree and no prospects.
i want to be happy, i want to travel, i want a life and a partner who loves me. i want to do work i love and create things with other artists. i want to be able to support myself. is this just a pipe dream?
i feel like the only thing that might help is trying to become certified to teach english abroad but i have no clue how i’d go about that.