This might be unnecessary but I am just so overwhelmed.
I have been looking for a job for a few weeks now. I just turned 20 and I only have a high school diploma for education and 1 year of retail experience. I have applied to one place and had one interview that went pretty bad because of my stuttering and tripping over my words like it usually is with interviews.
Every day I scroll though job listings and scroll and scroll and save some but ultimately end up not applying because the thought of working in one of these places just terrifies me and no matter what I find, everything just looks bad and miserable. I don't know if I am looking in the wrong places or not looking hard enough but just thinking in working in another place where you aren't considered and made to do awful things that just don't matter anyway just terrifies me.
My only experience with work has been awful so I guess it makes sense but I just don't know what I am going to do. I guess what I always do and suck it up and turn off your feelings because they don't matter when you have a job to do. I would just like to try and avoid doing that for another year again. I don't know if anyone can help I just feel lost and trapped at the same time and I don't know what to do or if there is anything I can do.