I'm sorry this is gonna be a long and incoherent read but I need to get this off my chest.
He asked, do you want an honest feedback or do you want me to filter and talk to you nicely? So I opted for the former.
His first impression of me was I looked uninterested, arrogant and standoffish saying that he knows I am experienced and have worked in bigger and more complex workplace then me standing with my hands in my pocket made me look like as if I felt this place and company was beneath me. He said being you are like that as well as knowledgeable your peers are gonna not want to guide you if you don't intergrate well with them. Wtf.
He then said that he felt I was entitled because I mentioned to him that he took my uniform sizes but didn't ask for my shoe (I need these to start my job. It's a basic necessity in my industry). He took offense to me casually saying that to him on the first day so he apologized for kind of snapping back at me telling me to “chill out, it's only your first day.”
2nd issue with me was that at the end of the first day, I needed his signature to order some prescription safety glasses. He was in his room talking to someone so I just hang around outside waiting. He stopped and turned to look at me and gestured me in, so off I went in. I gave he paper to him and he was suddenly like pissed and said something to the effect of you aren't even over your probation period then why are you even asking for this. So okay, I said I'll just use a temporary over glasses one. His issue he brought up was I interrupted his conversation that might be confidential and that I didn't even knock or what before entering. I told him it was unfair he said this as I told him I wait outside and he looked at me and I gestured that I need his signature and he called me in. I would've waited if he was busy. He apologized to me and that was that.
Honestly I appreciate his frank feedback of me but holy shit.. I'm a new guy, entering into a company where the newest guy is 4 years in and I'm kind of a reserved guy who needs time to get comfortable to shoot the shit and talk to people. Isn't it kind of unfair? You havent even got to know me. I admit I tend to look unfriendly if you don't know me but it's only because i usually need to talk to you for a bit before I assess that you're alright to talk casually or a line has to be drawn somewhere.
I felt that we started off on the wrong foot and I defended myself and he did apologize for his tone the day before and frankness. But man…. It's giving me anxiety to go back to work. The thing is, the company has really low turnover rate and the people there has been working like over 8 years on average and they even told me, they don't drag their feet coming in to work here.
I'm sorry guys for the rant. Why can't we just go to work, work quietly without these kinds of bullshit.