(21f)I’ve had this assistant manager that has always been nasty. She was rude, ignorant, condescending etc. Make fun of my work etc. She is like that with almost everyone but I feel like I was targeted more. She always gave off negative energy. In March of 2020, my dad told me to stay home for two weeks because we didn’t have proper protection during the virus. I always knew we had to wash our hands in general. When I went back, my managers advised me to wash my hands after coming from the lobby of the restaurant. (I used to work at the fast food place.) The moment I walked in from the lobby my assistant manger yelled bloody murder at me to wash my hands.
It pissed me off. How are you going to yell at me like that in front of everyone when I’m not even used to procedure yet, I was gone for two weeks. I really need help letting go of this because it’s plaguing in my mind and causing me a lot of anger and guilt. I feel guilt because the way she yelled at me like I’m going to be responsible for the death of 20 people if I forget to wash my hands one time. I’ve always washed my hands in general and I’m hygienic. but I wasn’t used to washing my hands every time I come out of the dining area. Now I feel like I don’t wash my hands at all even if i do wash my hands. It was her delivery for me. I’ve stood up to her a couple times she’s also vulgar with customers and has a bad temper.
Through the years I gotten some credit from working hard. I’m really humble and I’m hardly in any drama. And I hardly call off or come in late. But recently I’ve noticed some people are able to to call off when ever they want but when I (black female) want to call off for a good reason, I’m badgered to come in. I think it’s a has to do with race a little bit. I still liked my coworkers and most of my managers I don’t think they are inherently racist. I feel like it’s a subconscious thing.
I’ve also had a coworker in her late 40s always tattling on me for the pettiest things. I quit because I believe I deserve better for myself I’ve just tired of being talked down to and demeaned.
I have really bad anxiety so my feelings are intense. I really need help dealing with this.