M 27
i studied civil engineering from age 18-24 then i was hunting for a job as a civil engineer.. i worked 1 year later as a site civil engineer with below minimum wage for 1 year Then covid 19 appeared to the world so that i stopped working for 1 more year
now i have been working since 5 months as a technical office engineer with a minimum wage this time but with an insane working hours i work from 7am-5:30pm plus driving 2 hours everyday commuting 6 days/week
I live in a country that requires a residence fee / year
since i have no country Duo to war
Both jobs had to pay me the residency fee(2900$/year which is equal as 2 months of my salary) but they didn't (illegally) so I was leaving them
without further ado
now i hate being civil engineer i wanna shift my career to something else i am so tired of searching
i feel miserable and I'm not happy at all i feel like i am alone in this world everyday i regret being alive
i think Gerascophobia ( fear of growing older) is getting into my head day after day