My supervisor met with me first thing in the morning to tell me basically about all the ways I was failing and letting the department down.
After the discussion about my performance, I realised that they were right. I didn't care as much as everyone else. This job wasn't my whole life like it was for everyone else there. I told my boss I thought it was best that they find someone else who is ready to meet the standards that they have.
I've wanted to leave for a while, but I was worried about how it would look on my resume having left this job after shorter stints in my last few positions. I was basically deciding on a large part of life and my happiness on what is essentially just a piece of paper, when I don't even know I want a traditional “career”.
I didn't even have that bad of a job in comparison. But there was this really heavy culture of this is our whole life, this is all we do, we all work well outside of our regular hours and you should too if you want to make sure you're successful in this role. That just isn't for me.
I don't know for sure what's next, but I know it isn't here.