small rant / worry
I'm 20 and I work as a “part time” receptionist. I say “part time” bc despite it supposed to be a part time job, I'm there everyday, working 6-7 hours. I once even hit 100+ hours in the 2 weeks pay period.
I know it's the end of the line for me, I've done so many mistakes and my manager is fed up with me, I would like to say it's because I'm overworked to hell and back, I cry at least twice a week because of the job but I'm terrified I'm never going to find another. the pay isn't even good here, they still pay me minimum wage despite saying they would raise it later. it's so taxing and exhausting, I never have time for myself, let alone college, I know how my manager kind of shuns people sometimes (idk if that's the right word, but she basically kind of makes them an outcast).
I hate the environment, there was a point in time my manager told everyone not to talk to me because she thought I wasn't getting work done. even though there's a receptionist for the summer camp that's going on, they don't do much over there since it's so loud. and when I worked at the summer camp office, I was told to answer all the phone calls, but when it's the other receptionist (who my manager likes), it doesn't matter if she answers the phone or not.
maybe it's because she's much better at it, despite only doing it for 2-3 months, and she's younger. maybe I just suck at this job and this is as far as it's going to take me.
the reason why I'm scared is because I got let go of my previous part time job for being a no show when I got rushed to the hospital for an attempt at my own life. after that I could not find a job that would take me for about a year and a half. my mom was the one that got me the job I have now, and I had gotten “promoted” to receptionist.
I hate this, I'm frustrated at my job and myself because I just feel like, if I didn't work as much, and if I had been trained better, I could probably be a much better receptionist than now, but I'm the only receptionist at the front. it's exhausting and there's always so much work to do by myself. it's not a one person job, and they don't want to hire someone else because they don't think it's necessary. I've seen Google reviews of this place and I have seen multiple reviews saying that the front desk is overworked and swamped with work.
I don't know what to do, I have insurance to pay, etc and I need a job, because I'm really not the best with money.