I’ve been the medical field for 9 years now. I’ve sacrificed sleep, my mental health, my social life, everything, to excel in this field and provide people with exceptional care. I learned very early that we are viewed as replaceable. Every other review I’ve ever had basically scored me as adequate. My mentor at the time of entering the field told me early on that management does this to not give you any leverage by admitting your valuable.
A few months ago at my old job, a child died due to negligence from my employer, and I left the job. This was the final straw. Before that, a provider grossly violated hipaa by recording patients with a body cam (my partner and I were threatened with being fired after telling them we would go to the state if they didn’t) another provider just straight up killed a patient because they weren’t paying attention, among many other things that happened, like gaslighting from management and manipulation. I reached the point where I didn’t care if I was thrust into poverty, I just couldn’t do it anymore.
I really thought I was done with this field. I was horribly depressed. Then I got hired with a new employer. I’ve been here for just 4 months.
I got my employee review today. I was expecting it to say adequate as many others have. This is what I was expecting. However, this time, all of my fields were marked exceptional.
I didn’t realize how beaten down I was until I sat at my desk crying at an employee evaluation. For the first time in 9 years I have been acknowledged for what I do and the extra work I put in.
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