Ive been really struggling lately with real life issues, work issues and a whole stew of mental illnesses. Causing me to be late, or having to miss work, mental health days are not an excuse.
About 3 months ago manager sat me down and explained that there were areas of improvement and that need retraining (I was a eyewear sales consultant and optometric technician). I gladly accepted any and all training trying to take it seriously and really improve my work.
I started medication about a month prior so my manager figured that I'd have it all figured out by the end of my 3 month period and I'll be fine.
I honestly thought I had improved a lot. I made a lot of progress in those months where I've been able to wake up and… Smile. Who the fuck does that? Who feels great every morning and looks forward to work?
I did for a time.
I walked in early so I could get a bit of a jumpstart and my manager said my 2 year review was ready and our district manager was in store, which is strange as she's usually a 3 hour drive. I knew instantly.
My heart is torn because I honestly thought I was improving and doing so well. I just feel like a lot of progress has been undone.
I have no money to be able to float off if I can't find a job in the next two weeks.
I'm just lost and scared.