Hospital bills have wrecked my credit score, and therefore no one will rent to me. I'm so tired of sleeping in my car and getting harassed by people and cops constantly. I provide services for my community and work 14-15 hours during the day, but that same community won't allow me to sleep peacefully at night.
I don't know what people want from me, just let me rest for fuck sake, all I want to do is rest during my free time, but the public won't let me do that, the Karens especially. They'll wake me up at 6am on their morning walk with their dog, and they'll tell me to get a job. “Mam, I already work more than 100 hours a week, I'm really trying my best, what else am I supposed to do?”
I don't even know why I spend time arguing with these people, they always end up calling the cops anyway.
I miss my apartment, I miss the safety of a home, I miss being able to take showers after work. I miss getting treated like a human being.
I'm so burnt out from working so damn much, I'm exhausted, really exhausted. I'd love to rest in a safe place, just for one day, but I can't do that unfortunately.
I don't like the way this country is treating it's citizens, I don't think I deserve to live on the streets if I'm working 15 hours a day, every single day… Right?
I'm sad. I wish I could get a hug and get told everything will be ok.