I know my health comes first and that I shouldn't stress but I can't help it. Why would I want to work for a company that doesn't care anyway? I love my colleagues and the work isn't bad.
I started back with this company last year after they got in touch and said they were inviting people back. I never thought I would go back after being made redundant during the lockdowns, if I'm honest. It's minimum pay, one break which is unpaid and no company benefits. We were and are pushed constantly for unmanageable production as well. But I love my colleagues and we do manage to see each other through. I know there is better for me out there but the employment side of things has been grim for some time. I feel quite blessed being able to walk back into this job (I know, I know!)
After a few weeks of being back I ended up really ill with the worst cold I have had. I had multiple tests and they all said I was negative for covid. I had a week off. I've been really ill since this cold, with a cough that is draining the life out of me. It resulted in another week off at the star of the year and another just weeks ago.
Seeing a doctor has been best impossible but I finally managed to get a phone appointment with a nurse, who listened and started to take action. I've had to go for scans and blood work and now, as I'm waiting for scan results, I'm not well again and having some funny firms, missing more of work.
I know all of this time of its unacceptable and they need somebody they can rely on, so I have no bad feelings for the fact they are letting me go as soon as they let me walk back in on Monday, but I can't help but feel really sad about it all. Prior to this I was never really off work and I was only ever late once when a big incident happened that was out of my control. I'm only on a short term contract though and they want reliable people, so I'm gone. Any words of encouragement about it all would be much appreciated. I'm feeling quite stressed out right now with worry about rent and such. As of now I'm entitled to no help either. I know it will get better but I can't help but feel a bit low.