I’m so tired of working for others. I’m so tired of being dehumanized at work. I’m so tired of not being able to keep a job. I’m so tired of my hours being cut for no reason. I’m so tired of not having money. I’m just tired of it all.
I work myself really hard at every job I work, but it’s never enough for anyone. I get treated as if I’m an incompetent employee that can’t do their job at all. Nobody ever extends any grace or compassion towards me if they see I’m trying my best. It’s completely unfair and the pattern seems to never end no matter where I go.
Right now, I am a food expeditor at a popular chain restaurant. I started this current job a little over 3 months ago, working a minimum of 30+ hours a week. After a couple busy nights where I made a couple small mistakes during our dinner rush, and having an impatient coworker repeatedly complain about me, I’m now losing all of my losing hours. I just received my schedule for the next week and I’m literally only scheduled to work for 4 hours on both Saturday and Sunday.
I work really hard and I’m a good fucking employee. This has happened to me at every last job I’ve had though. I start being micromanaged and everything I do becomes an issue. I now have the restaurant manager hovering over me all night me while I’m trying to work and treating me like a kid, and it’s actually infuriating.
At this point, I’m gonna have to start looking for a new job again because I’m sure they’re “quiet firing” me or whatever it’s called. The same thing happened at my last job, the previous one before that, and the one prior to that one as well! I fucking hate this system where employers are allowed to bully you out of your job and stop you from making money for no reason. Jobs are not easy to come by, but nobody fucking cares about that. This shit is so exhausting. I wish I was in a position where I could just work for myself and not have others decide whether or not I deserve to make a living…