A couple of weeks ago, I was sitting at my desk when I started experiencing chest pains. I remember the day it happened too. My supervisor came over to my desk with a fake smile on her face and told me about all of the things I could’ve done better on a case I asked for her help on. As soon as she walked away, the chest pains started.
Since then it’s been happening more frequently. I also noticed that as soon I leave my job and throughout the weekend, I don’t experience chest pains at all.
This had made me realize that I am young and completely burned out. I can slowly feel my mind turning to mush. I’m forgetting things more and more. I’m easily annoyed and all I want to do is sleep. I don’t enjoy hanging out with friends or family. My mind is literally always on work. What I need to do for the next work day, the calls I need to do and emails I need to respond to.
I’m currently writing this at desk and I can honestly say I hate this place. I’m not happy. I’m overworked. But my supervisor doesn’t care. As long as me and my team keep our stats up and it makes her look good so that she can take the credit, she doesn’t give a shit. She loves to come into the office every Monday to tell us about her relaxing, care-free weekend.
I just want to be back to my old self.