I got in trouble at work today. I have an online job, it doesn’t pay too well, but it’s something. I enjoyed what I was doing, however, I have always had a disruptive home life and I suffer from PTSD. I feel like I’m ALWAYS too tired to work. My performance has been awful. I try to not let it affect me, but even the thought of working to stay alive is not enough motivation for me.
I feel like a disappointment. I’m so burnt out. In my mid-teens I worked constantly, 60hrs a week. I have a therapist, went back on medications recently, but it isn’t enough. I need help changing my mindset, or something.
I have a meeting with my boss tonight. They didn’t fire me today, after I explained my situation, but I feel awful.