Hello everyone, I really need to talk about this to people who can understand me because my family won't.
2 months ago I (26M) started working for a consulting company after my Bachelor+Master. I was so excited to start my career after all these years of studies and minor works and my mood was on top level! People in the office are nice to me and my boss is a good mentor, the pay will be good after I'm done with my internship (6 months) and I can't really complain about anything. Also I know that I'm a privileged guy because my family helped me a lot with my studies and I had to pay only some minor stuffs.
BUT.
Last week I suddenly started to feel a bit anxious about my life. I have a nice job and I work with nice people and I feel guilty to even complain, but I leave home at 7AM and I come back around 8PM, I make dinner and lunch for the next day and its almost time to go to sleep since I'm too tired to even watch a movie or a TV show.
Is that all? Did I study 20 years to give my life to corporations? I can't do anything for myself during monday-friday, so am I going to give 5 days every week to someone else's profit while I try to rest and do something for me on Sat-Sun?
I know that a lot of people work way harder than this and for shitty jobs too, I don't wanna play the victim here but I feel really sad about all of this, in the past I always thought about me being a present and caring father in the future, but how could I manage to do that if I have to work this much? Will I lose my best years working like this?
I'm sorry I don't even know if this is an okay post but I really needed to talk about it, I'd like to get some feedbacks from you guys because I just realized I don't know anything about life. Was I out of the world for not understanding how it really works all these years?