So, I'm quite new to the jobs front then most of you, I don't have any kind of PHD, i have all my GCSE's (General certificate of Secondary Education) and an NVQ Level 2 in Business Admin and I'm great with IT and numbers.
My first experience with a job was right before covid doing an apprenticeship Accounts payable (invoice receiving) for my local council. I loved that Job, loved the people, loved the work but near the end of my contract they started treating me like shit, wanted me to basically create a procedure for them that detailed all the work I do so someone else (on a higher wage) would be able to complete my work easily because I was so good at what i did and never fell behind on workflows. (Apart from when depression kicked in about April/June time because of covid) unfortunately I couldn't complete my procedure because i was studying and doing coursework while also doing my job for them for reference on a normal day I would process about 120/150 invoices a day, and on a busy day mainly Monday's it could be 400/500 invoices. Once my contract ended i tried to help do more work for them that they asked me to do for them but then they suddenly ghosted me, tried to contact some old colleagues a few months later but none of them talked to me I got a false promise of a catch-up with the team and that we'd go out for dinner and celebrate me leaving like they'd done it every other member of staff. A year later and I gave up on it all
Couldn't find employment after that in October because of Covid attended about 30 interviews received nothing, applied for hundreds of jobs, nothing. Eventually almost a year later I found a job with a PR firm. Thought brilliant, a fresh start, liked my manager, got a chance to work from home again which is where i felt most comfortable. Finally an Accounts job again. Worked my ass off doing everything they asked, researching, minute taking for meetings, but it was never Accounts. It was just project starting and countless hours of research and searching companies to contact and appeal to which led to nothing, then another project to do work for local elections which led to nothing. Ultimately I stopped trying because the company stopped trying for me. Why should i research for 7 hours a day everyday if it leads to nothing? If I work my ass off day in day out and my near 40 page document and 400 businesses I meticulously research for 2 months meant nothing? The social media content i helped produce for them did nothing. Ultimately my contract ended last Monday and I've started my search for new work and I'm dreading it, my parents constantly nag me about work and finding a new job but I've just lost all enthusiasm for work and I'm basically 18 months into my professional career and I fucking hate that I'm already burned out.
If you read to this far, thanks so much and terribly sorry my story is really bleak I'm just frustrated and I've needed to get shit off my chest for a while so I thought this might be the best place to rant. Feel free to ask any questions you have