I work remote full time for a small “consulting” company focused on software implementations for small to large companies. I have been with the company for a little over a year. The company is severely understaffed, has been since I started. It is clear that employees are struggling on the projects that we are actively working on, but management and sales continue selling more projects, setting unrealistic deadlines, preparing unrealistic estimates, moving staff to and from projects, blaming employees for project failures (despite raising our concerns around deadlines and estimates and asking for help)…I am at a point where I am not even productive anymore. I stare at my computer screen most of the day just feeling undervalued, like my work is useless anyways, like my career has gone backwards, guilty knowing the clients have been misled and I just lack motivation entirely to do any work and feel absolutely no satisfaction when I do work. This has trickled into my personal life, affecting my marriage and relationship with my kids because I am so unhappy and stressed about my job. There is a lot of shit going on in my personal life as well that is adding to my stress and depression.
I know I need to leave this company, I just don’t know when or how. I will lose insurance and income. But my mental health is deteriorating more and more everyday. I just want to get better. I don’t know how I will find another job with how much this one has set me back in any achieving any career growth.
Any advice, tips, shared experiences? 🙁