What a load…
I just got offered a job making a ton of money, all I need to do is pass a background check. I went through with it, feeling good, entering my information. The next day, I get an email from the place doing the background check. They couldn't find information on the place I made up that I don't actually work at, obviously, and requested some more information to complete the check. I sent back an email saying I provided the phone number and name of my “employer,” a friend of mine who is willing to pretend to be my boss, and saying that I'm not comfortable sharing my payment information.
I haven't heard back yet, but I'm stressing the fuck out and I don't normally feel stressed. I've been depressed all day thinking I just fucked myself by lying. The worst part is that it isn't really even a lie. I have no professional experience programming and have been doing it as a hobby for almost a decade, just recently graduated from college in software development, and can't find an entry level job because they're all requiring 2+ years experience.
I'm only taking credit for the actual work I've done, even though it's unprofessional. I haven't gotten an email from the company that does the background check yet and I'm freaking the fuck out because I really need this job and it pays so much and I'm so excited to actually work doing something I love. Part of me thinks I should email the company and request another meeting to clear this up and explain my situation, but I doubt they'll let me keep the job, despite the last interview being the best interview I've had in my life. I hope I can just retract that information from the background check and I can move on but I don't know…
I'm so afraid of not getting this job, I've been applying to places for over a year and fucking nobody wants me despite my qualifications being more than adequate. Fucking hell, I'm so anxious and feel like I can't do anything. I've been thinking about this shit all day.
What do I do, I'm probably going to lose this job…