Anyone feel like looking for work is not only stressful but a full time job itself? Like you have to apply and apply job post after job post, then you get either a couple offers all at once and its overwhelming to pick the best one you could OR you only get one offer and feel you are forced into this one job not knowing how it's going to go, and taking it even if you feel it's a very risky idea. You have to deal with wage haggling! As of late for example the only jobs that have responded so far only want to pay below $15/ hour. I need a job because I am going to be let go as soon as next week, and I cannot afford even a week without work. Dont even get me started on unemployment because in my state, they make it EXTREMELY difficult to get on unemployment, or any assistance. And let's go back to the $15 bS, because somehow employers make you feel unemployable if you ask for a livable wage. Did you know $8/hr in 1985 is equivalent to a little over $18/hr TODAY!?! Its easy just to google this shit but no one seems to know to f-ing do that!
Should I also mention I have cptsd from pretty much born to be slave labor in a cult, being toliet trained at gun point, being convinced that I will have a work ethic that will be useful as a working adult ….to learn later, as 30 year old my work ethic, perfectionism, etc is as useless as on toilet paper. That just makes this EXTRA stressful.