Im basically suffering from schizophrenia and throughout my life I have constantly been discriminated against by literally every colleague student teacher or stranger ever. It was always like if I couldn't show up to be the best in anyway I wasn't even given a text or comment and it became clear that people started diminishing my progress by sabotaging me as soon as I got to high school while also addedly because I have such poor cognition I was given my poor mindset a proneness to do embarassing things. Before high school my grades were amazing and high standard but during the course of those certificates or testing I was never actually doing good. Somewhat of a miracle was needed its obvious now I'm not talented because I have a 2.1 GPA in my field. Plus I also realised that even though I do everything possible to succeed or write that good essay or solve that pronging problem on time in exam it was never enough anymore as it used to be. I supposedly have an IQ of 110 and look how ironic that is not even good enough to get a degree according to experts. Furthermore I have parents who never gave up on me but always and I mean always needed me to be the best otherwise they wouldn't even give me the sympathy of looking into what I SEE myself which is poor capacity and excessive working. Although I don't work as hard as my brother I give it as a testament that we both have those genes that make life a bit tough he is however more alpha and cares less which fits him. I have masturbated everyday of my life since 13. I am literally out of options what on earth am I? I just need opinions.