I have a pretty easy job. I get to work from home, salaried, sometimes start at 10am and leave at 4pm. I make about 100k, and I’m good at my job. However, I’m completely miserable.
I have a loving family, wife and kids, we own a house, but I’m severely depressed. I’ve been trying different medications for depression (on my 4th one) and not much is helping. I’m starting to think that maybe I just hate sitting at a desk and working for someone else every day of my life. It feels like a literal prison even though I’m getting paid to do it. I have moments where I enjoy it, but the dread and depression are what I experience most.
I thought for a while that I have ADHD, and that’s why I can’t focus. I even paid for an evaluation but they said I don’t have it. Maybe I’m just not meant to sit at a desk and stare at a screen and do meaningless work the rest of my life. I don’t feel like I can leave, because any other job in this industry would be similar… and I get paid well. Do I just accept my fate and do this for another 30 years?