As I start writing this, I dont even know if I have carma enough to post.But, this doesnt matter as much right now as ill prolly push it into a comment if i can post it.
I have been a TRUE believer of the “you have to work” mentality, meaning I believed the “your work is ur identity” to some extent.This, in retroperspective, has probably been like a mental jail cell these last years.I did everything how I should have, studied to become an engineer, and has been working in multiple industries the last 10 years.The goal of this, as Im one of those “ambitious” guys who are VERY outgoing, and aiming for “CEO”
Like, for many years, my brain actually thought this was the holy grail to feeling “succesful”.
This makes it even harder to realize, it was a brain washing….
MANY things made me re-think, this forum actually is one of them.Combined with the “Rich dad, poor dad” mentality.Like, I have always struggled to find something in life that actually gave me real “satisfaction”, as ive never been one of those “oh, I wanna do this, or this”.I kinda mostly wanna live, experience the world in a way that educates me, and being able to help to push the world in the right direction.Like when u studied, it was pretty obvious to read old exams vs. reading books.
My realization is along these lines, as I saw the “makes no sense” belief of us working class people to work hard, and get paid.Once this basically was the norm, but nowadays we see that the new “norm” is to “work 2-3 years before switching”I CANNOT imagine going through, what I over a decade has started to feel like a more and more “humiliating experience” to jump through hoops for interview no. 3, and still not getting it.Or, tbh I myself havent been in this situation YET, but I do realize that if i dont do something drastic this is where im gonna end up.
This year, ive decided to put 50k USD on “my brain” by making my money on trading, instead of slaving around for 9-5 just to “start over like a fucking noob” every 3 year…
Another thing I have been “bottling up inside” is my opinions, even if I saw someone clearly misunderstanding “realities” I would always think “what would my employeer in 30 years think”
I regret having these thoughts 🙁