I know this isn't that serious or anything but I need to vent.
I've been going through a tough couple years, who hasn't, right?
My husband was murdered while I was at work. Due to who the person was that murdered him, all the evidence of me at my job, two towns away, with hundreds of cameras and eye witness accounts… just vanished. Like some dumb fucking movie but instead of a good ending, I get reality. My family help get me a lawyer and I decide to not go to court because this is a small area and I don't know who else is working with the sheriff and investigator. I take a no contest to a lesser crime that is still heinous that I didn't commit, but what ever. I am free, no death sentence or life in prison so, unlike an innocent friend from High School that I know, serving a murder conviction that he is innocent of and that everyone knows he is innocent of, I am doing ok. Just got a felony now that is very bad and makes it difficult to find a job that doesn't blow.
I have found nothing but awful jobs since it happened. Either abused, verbally or sexually, the pay is less than minimum wage and illegal but it's that or be homeless with a felony in a state where the sheriff is pissed about what happened ..uhm no thanks. So I hop town to town, job to job, substance to substance, bad reality to bad reality for five years. Now I'm in the shitty Capitol living in a sober living home with 8 other addict/alcoholic angry, rude, women.
Cool. What ever, I been in a lot worse places. I'm working as a waitress not even earning the legal waitress wage, making barely any tips just to buy time so I won't get kicked out. My car is broke and 3 and a half hours away with my parents who used it until it no longer worked. Them saying that they don't think I can drive in the city so they don't want me to have my own car. The bus doesn't go everywhere around here- not the best system. Not the best city. Not the best state. In fact- one of the worst. Good ole Oklahoma. I apply at 40 places within two days, applying constantly, sometimes getting a phone call, sometimes an email- but no luck. Until I get an email from a place that is like an adult clunky cheese, two colors and two male names. I'm excited. My roommate drives me to the interview since I don't have a vehicle yet and the bus doesn't go there, plus it is only 5 minutes with a car. I interview, I get the job. The roommate who drives me decides to also interview. She asks for a prepping kitchen job. Um good for her but fuck no, I took a job I know I excell at. We get home. Our house manager asks us how it went. We tell her. She says I am not allowed to walk home at night and the two women who also live here are not allowed to drive at night because they either have trauma from driving at night or anxiety. I get it. I have anxiety driving in the day. I never asked them to drive me anywhere. The house manager tells us we need to go back there and ask for the same schedule. Reluctantly we go back and i write on a paper the situation since the manager is in a “meeting”. I write out what's up. And then I write that I can always get an Uver or a Lyf so if they can't change anything then don't worry. I applied to the job that I wanted and know I can do. My roommate has never worked in her life. Is 80-90 pounds and is 60 years old and is 4'7 … yep. I am 30, worked my entire life. So, I ask her if she is willing to change her job because I am not and I know that a kitchen prep job is going to be too difficult for her anyways. She says no. Which is fine, she's her own person. What ever. I am just happy and blessed that I finally got a job that I know I can excel at and it pays 12 an hour so I don't have to suffer anymore unfair wages. I'm siked for this job. So orientation comes and we go through it and get our schedules. Mine is late afternoon and hers is morning. Cause that's just the jobs. Well the house manager tells us to talk to the manager again about the shifts and he says he understands and can work with us. Says he will call us later that evening. Well I had tried calling days prior about something else so I know he isn't going to call back so after a couple hours I try calling up there but no one is answering the phones. I try it until it's obvious no one is going to answer the phone (11 times, spaced out). In the morning my roommate is telling me that I need to go up there with her to figure out if they changed our schedule. I told her if they did it would be hers, and her job. Since I was firm about my job and not going to change it, so I didnt need to go. Well she just kept on until I decided just to go so she'd shut up. We get there early and no one is even there. About 8:45 the manager shows up and says sorry he was on the line all night and that's why he couldn't get back to us. He then says it's going to take a minute to handle our schedule as he got to get things going. So we sorta follow him around as he talks to other coworkers about stupid shit, turns on a light or two. Then at exactly 9am he comes up to us and says he doesn't have time for this and that I need to go home and come back at my appropriate shift and that my roommate needs to get to work. So no problem, I walk home and come back for my shift. I work my shift and go home. The next day I am asleep and my roommate decides to not even show up to work and just quit. Ok. I'm not my roommates keeper so I don't really give a shit and I expected her to do that anyways. I text the supervisor over my job area about some shoes as I do not have a black pair yet and I am wondering if I am ok to wear these shoes until I can get a new pair through the company. She never answers, I even call because I'm starting to over think it and spray paint my shoes black for the coming up shift. I get ready for the next shift and I am excited for work. I get there, and try to clock in and am denied in the system. That's weird… I automatically got a sinking feeling. So I go get a supervisor and she says she needs to get the manager on the shift. Uh.. ok, and hey, the girl who trained me yesterday who said she wouldn't be in today- is here. Wtf, ok hi? So the manager opens up a party room and tells me to have a seat…. fuck I know where this is going.
He tells me that because he doesn't believe I have adequate transportation that he is firing me. I told him that I have a car that is getting fixed and I can speed the process up to make it up here in a week instead of the two I told them in the beginning interview. He repeats himself. I tell him that this is no way correct, and that I had already explained to him that I had two roommates that didn't work AT ALL and that they take the other roommates places as a part of “service” work in the program were in, and that I also lived super close that I could ride a bike or walk, but that is even unneeded because I can Uver and Lyf, or even personal taxis on craigslist and that I had stated since the beginning these options and that I would always be on time with these options and it wasnt an issue then. And since this is the Capitol that there would always be a ride service available. He repeats himself again. I tell him that I am not my roommates keeper and I didn't even know she quit and didn't come in as I was asleep and that she and her work ethic had literally nothing to do with me and my job and that I am being punished due to retaliation of her quitting. He denies it but you can tell that bingo that's what it was. He says it is a transportation issue. I tell him there literally is no transportation issue, especially since the fact that she quit and has no where to be and I pay her to drop me off and pick me up and even without her I can pay $10 to $15 on a ride share thing and still have 6 1/2 hours of profit to take home. He says that I had already been removed from the system (I believe he did it as soon as she didn't show up to her shift- that he just took me out with her despite us working two totally different jobs and two different shifts and being from basically two different planets) and that I could reapply after 90 days and maybe my “transportation issue” would be fixed by then. Wow. Amazing job Shiloh and your dopey ass look alike Otis whateverhisdumbnameisidontremember
I'm not blaming my roommate nor am I blaming my house manager for what happened. The management had a chip on his shoulder and wanted to get back at my roommate using firing and “hurting” me to do it. Well my roommate doesn't give a shit as she gets money from her 3 ex husbands. It's me earning 3 dollars an hour waitressing at some shit hole that suffers but miserable people are miserable so I just gotta keep on keeping on. My parents are about to bring up my car so my job problem will hopefully lessen up and I hope my house manager respects my day time driving anxiety like she does with the other two girls night time driving trauma and anxiety.
I'm going to be ok. But it really sucked. I really wanted that job. I told them that. They basically said too bad too sad.. anyways on to better things. Btw, Shiloh and the other duck, yalls both miserable and sad and it really, really shows. Enjoy ruling your shit show with that iron fist, maybe it isn't everyone else's fault that yall are so short staffed? Hmm maybe it's from illegally firing employees cause someone hurt your ego and you had to come in on your day off so you take it out on their roommate hoping that the roommate takes it out on them or some other weird fucked up shit I don't understand as I am not a pos human being. Maybe get some treatment. Idk. It helps me anyways. My sponsor told me to avoid taking my roommate to any more of my interviews..lol she ain't gotta tell me twice.