Hi everyone,
I'm young (18) and landed a very high paying government job straight out of school. My family was and still is very proud of me, and I've been here for 6 months now.
My issue is that the work environment is so toxic I'm developing anxiety and depression I'd never felt before. I am constantly shaking and sweating in fear. My coworkers are all super nice to each other, then turn their backs and talk shit about one another. They're constantly doing this, every day, every one of them.
My boss/supervisor started to talk a lot of crap about me early on, at the 4 month mark and it has progressively gotten worse. She actively deterred me from a work party by starting an 'argument' with me that day. Of course I am not argumentative, I always apologize and do my best to be better.
I'm just so tired and exhausted. Every work meeting we have I am sweating like a pig and shaking violently, scared to have to justify myself. I get crap sleep and my weekends consist of me worrying about going back to work.
My parents have expressed they will be angry with me if I quit. So I'm now just crying, an emotional mess that I never used to be and honestly scared of my coworkers. I have no friends in the office that aren't 'fake' and I just feel sick and nauseous all the time. My team is all women, which definitely makes this so much worse.
I need advice or support, I don't know if I can take much more and unfortunately I'm starting to see some really negative outcomes for me…