I’ve been at my company for almost 4 years. I wanted to quit back in Jan 2020 but I got a huge promotion that put me in charge of my department, and I accepted because of the massive boost to my career. I excelled at it, but it absolutely ruined my mental health. For 2 years, things got increasingly worse, and it was suggested to me twice by my psychiatrist and therapist to take a medical leave of absence due to work-related stress and anxiety. I listened and took about 5 weeks off. Now I’m back to work and I’m so numb, I feel paralyzed from even sending an email. I’ve been looking for a new job, but not very actively – I can’t seem to muster the will for that either. I have no passion for it, though I used to. I’m just so burned out.
I wish it wasn’t frowned upon to be out of a job with no prospects. I don’t want to feel like I have no purpose. But honestly, I wish I could spend my days homemaking. Just for like a year or something. It would give me a modest, peaceful joy to just keep a tidy, clean home stocked with food for my husband and 2 cats.
I feel so stuck 🙁