Antiwork

I’ve worked 5 years now in a job that is toxic to me and is a paycheck at the end of the day. I’ve applied to other jobs on and off o er the years but would go hard until I stopped trying. I’m exhausted and I find myself looking forward to having a child not because I want one but because maybe then I can work from home. I’m 10 minutes late to work everyday, I can’t get myself there on time, and I’m barely mentally present when I’m there. I’m not happy and I’ve lost my bubbliness while I’m there. I don’t even have a desire to socialize bc I feel like it’s all fake. I’m exhausted and I’m tired of it but I can’t seem to find anything better. How do I get any joy out of work again when it’s a paycheck, not a passion, and…

The owners were good people but my coworkers were not. The only time I went to the bathroom, it seems, I just went to cry. I cried so much that I couldn't stop the night before nor the morning next. So I sent an email saying that I quit. I don't think its fair that I have to degrade my character for other people. They wouldn't train me even when i asked questions. It seemed as though they were super lazy, and pretty much used me to their advantage. It didn't seem like the problem could be fixed because they were working there for years and was never gonna change. Now I'm trying to find another one. But it hurts that even for people with degrees, its hard to find another job unless you have 10 years of experience, work for damn near free, and basically become the opposite of…