So to make a really long story extremely short: I've worked for a large health system for 10 years in a few different positions. I screwed up royally leaving the position I was in for 8 of those 10 years and took a position about a year ago that was an entirely new role for the system. Thought I would be good at it, failed miserably because of lack of direction and support from my boss. I got written up a few weeks ago for 'failure to meet work standards' and have since been trying to do as much as I can to prevent losing my job because im a single mother with a mortgage and I receive no child support. I figured I would just bear with the misery of this job as I actively search for a new job outside the system because I would have issues transferring due to the write up.
Today I had a meeting with my boss where he brought up issues from MONTHS ago which I responded professionally and calm to mainly stating the fact that ive had 0 instruction, which i have brought up multiple times during the past year. The issues were things like, we don't have badge swipes on record for you (because I entered through the front and clocked in on a computer), and that I havent been going to all the locations in a timely manner (6 locations is double what others with my title have and is hard to manage for one person) he then told me to go home and to wait for HR to contact me. I'm definitely getting fired but am I going to have to take this time in limbo unpaid or use my saved up paid time off hours?
For context on the issues with my position: Health systems are definitely on fire right now post pandemic and are trying to squeeze as many duties onto one person that they possibly can due to revenue loss and inflation. When I started my position in september of last year, there was absolutely no guidance from my boss. He spent about 4 hours with me going to 3 of the 6 locations I was supposed to be in charge of and then I didn't see him again for about 1.5 months. I tried my best to figure out and navigate this role but it was difficult for me because I'm not the kind of person who's good at that kind of thing. During my interview I specifically mentioned that I need to be instructed and guided, especially during onboarding because this was a new role in the system, to which the response was 'the directors are meeting this week to come up with a playbook for these positions'. I was never given a job description or any kind of 'playbook' and definitely was not set up for success. I'm of course going to apply for unemployment and am aware that I can appeal if HR does fire me in the coming days although im really just emotionally exhausted with the health system to the point that im not sure if I would appeal just to end up getting placed somewhere that I do not want to be. I'm really just worried about these few days that I'm told to stay at home because I'm already living paycheck to paycheck as it is and what comes next while I'm unemployed.
Any advice for this current situation is much appreciated. Also I started by saying this wouldn't be long but it turns out I needed to vent about this more than I initially realized. Sorry!