For the past two months ive been working for a machine shop on the third shift. The reason i took this job on was so that we didn’t need a babysitter and I could stay home our baby during the daytime. This turned out to be a much more harder task than I initially thought. In my head i had worked 3rd before with no problems but didn’t account for a 7 month old baby keeping me up when i should be sleeping this time. Kinda thought we’d nap together but she hasn’t been a very good napper. The job I had was kind of BS, the company tried to get me to lie about my wages to employees that had already been there for years. That turned into me finding out i was making 3$ more than the guy training me and turned into drama. 90% of this job was pretend, it was pretending to be working for 4 hours a night and the other 4 hours were where you were productive. They didn’t reward hard work, as the old saying goes “to valuable for production goes” all of the employees made me aware the only way to move up was to kiss ass. Besides all of the corporate bs that came with this job I did give it my honest try but my mental health is not worth the job, between the wife and I we work 80 hours and our finances do not reflect that.
I have dropped multiple hints to my wife to the point of out right saying I cant do this anymore but try explaining the feeling of not sleeping at night to someone who gets 8+ hours a night and they just wont understand. Ive taken the sacrifice, i know 2 months may not sleep long but i may have gotten a combined 80 hours of sleep in the past 2 months during the work week. The depression has become overwhelming and the money just wasn’t there to justify putting myself threw this.
Fortunately, i interviewed at another company today and scored the job and have an interview with a company Tuesday that is under a union contract. I am planning on door dashing to get by the next few weeks to supplement my wife’s income until I start either position. Has anyone else dealt with a situation like this? As a man i feel weak and feel like a failure but in all honesty i feel like capitalism failed me. I am a skilled worker, I run CNC machines and have always been a good employee. I don’t understand what went wrong