So, I work in a somewhat dangerous job category, but I'd rather not say what it is to remain anonymous. When I had my first interview my current boss told me the company is all “culture, culture, culture”. This worried me from the get go but, I said I wanted to give it a shot and I'd hope I would fit in. My previous job was doing almost the same exact type of work, and I was a foreman there. I did very well at that job, and for the most part i was unsupervised. So I figured the new job wouldn't be too bad.
The problem for me is I have social anxiety, so I suppose it could be my fault for even trying. But now that I'm in it, I feel like it was a complete waste to start here. There is a company team meeting almost every morning where everyone sits at a table and talks…and I've noticed twice now I walk in and everyone just goes quiet. I know I'm not the funnest person on the planet to work with but I still show up and say good morning and all. I'd like to fit in….it's just difficult, I don't have much to say.
All my boss says now is I'm doing a very good job but I have years experience and there's 2 other guys that started two weeks before me that he says the same thing to. They have no experience at all
…I'm told the whole company is like “family”. I could go on and on about what I've been put through there so far but basically I think they want me to quit….
I'm quiet, but I do whatever they need me to do. I 100% feel like I don't fit in at all….and I'm probably gonna put a notice in soon. My question is can someone with social anxiety work and flourish at a company that praises “culture, culture, culture”, and “we are like family”? I think I already know the answer, but I'd like thoughts.