I just recently returned to work after a week long holiday and I’ve just had a wave of severe anxiety rush over me. Literally after clocking in and starting to work, I felt like I was depersonalizing. I didn’t feel real. The situation didn’t feel real. It felt like I was a sim in some sort of sick robotic simulation. I felt like I was going to vomit.
For context, I work in a call center. It is very repetitive. I do the same thing almost every call back to back all day. I knew it was repetitive doing it before, but after having a decent break from it I feel sick doing it again. I literally had to run to the bathroom and splash water on my face to stop myself from having a panic attack.
It had been a very long time before I had a break like this. I guess experiencing life for what it can be, pretty decent without having to work, the soul crushing reality of doing the same thing over and over again was….is….too much? I also have a history of anxiety problems so. That probably didn’t help.
I don’t know. This is horrible. I almost feel like leaving again but I was already out for a week .