When I was in my 20s, I was the perfect bootlicker.
Ran a Papa Murphy's as acting manager (because the actual manager got a promotion, and they didn't bother actually replacing her for 4 months) for $8.50/hr. I worked off the clock, because I couldn't get overtime. I didn't get bonuses, because I wasn't a manager. I worked Halloween, Black Friday, Christmas, New Years.
They hired in some rando after telling me for 4 months that I was gonna get the manager job. (Which, knowing what I know now, DUH)
I accept that I got fucked over.
But what still makes me cringe is how awful I was to a few of my employees. I climbed the pseudo corporate ladder, such as it was. I pushed people aside and was rather ruthless in my desire to succeed. I feel shitty about that now. And also despise the person I was when I was managing. (To make matters worse, I did this brutal efficiency of ascension at several jobs. I'm clever as hell; and fast food isn't that difficult of a place to excel at)
How do I go about extending myself compassion for being everything I now loathe about corporate America? I thought about doing the 4th step method and contacting the people I've wronged. But I'm not sure.
Ugh. Does anyone else relate?