Hello everyone. I started my first full-time job after school in April 2020. Two months after, an “another boss” from a different division from the same company came to me and asked me to join his division to position with much more responsibility but more money (since he heard, that I was working fine). I agreed, so I moved my position there. Yet still, I wasn't working directly under the company, but I was part of the “third-party” agency. In June 2021, my boss asked two of my coworkers at positions above me how I was working. After he heard positive responses, he decided to put me out of the agency to directly hire me under the company. So from June 2021 to the end of May 2022, I'm on a one-year working contract (which is in my country considered as starting pack). After the year, the company will decide based of my working performance, if they will keep me in the company (by signing three-year work contract) or they will get rid of me.
Since it's the first full-time job of my life, I have zero experience in this field of life and I'm honestly not sure, what I should expect. Within those months I moved out from my parents and now I live on my own. This means I'm now reliable on my own. And this is when my concerns started to hit my head. In November of 2021, I did one big accident that took a lot of money out of the company where I work. I honestly thought it was the end of my early career but my boss just stated that it will be fine and that happened to everyone. And yet I'm still working there to this day. But after that one time I screwed up I'm just no longer confident about my future in the company. As time pass, I'm more and more concerned about my future in the company. Will they renew my one-year contract? Or they will get rid of me? Every time they call my phone I am concerned about what I will hear. Will I get a new task or they will tell me to pack up and go? I'm considering talking to my boss about my feelings and asking him If the company is satisfied with my work performance. But I don't know If I'm ready to hear the truth. The thing is, I just love my job here. I want to stay here. I want to build up my career here. I don't know what to do. I'm sorry if it seems to be cringe, but I don't know who I can talk bout it so I thought I could share my concerns with those, who experienced work-life better than me.