I couldn't gather my last five years. I am supposed to be a graduate of Chemical Engineering by now but I couldn't, I want to prepare again for the uni exams for a new university. However, my parents were telling me that I was either gonna work or study. So I thought I should save some money while preparing for exams.
I was a bit lavish about my salary and I could only save money that is equal to 150 euros. (May wage is 6100 TRY which is equal to 330 euros. I am working since 25th June. I earned 19350 TRY until now (1070 Euro). I should have started studying by August but I was too tired and undisciplined to restart. In my mind, the only thing that's giving me a schedule is working and if I leave now I can't study and if I leave I will be instantly broke.
And working doesn't give me the same passion as before. My coworkers left, and they had reasons to leave because of the work but I didn't get the same pressure from supervisors, and I feel lonely while working. I can't save money and I can't study for university exams. I don't know what to do. I had psychiatrist appointments in the state hospitals but they send me only giving some antidepressants even though I beg them for some psychologist they tell me that's for more special patients.
I don't know what to do. I need some advice. My best friend says I should leave. My parents say I should stay. My coworkers say I should leave. My supervisors say I should stay. I know I am not good but I am very indecisive about my future. And to be honest I am sick of being dragged to the points about my life I can't even decide. I just want to take the strings and I could do this by having some economic independence but I couldn't. I just couldn't.
Maybe this place wasn't the best for telling these but I thought you people know something about these kinds of things. I am sorry if it isn't the place for these and I am okay if this post gets removed by the mods because if it isn't the place for this.