My mental health is so awful. My boss told me to go home and not come back until I had a doctor note and I’d get paid for it. So that’s what I had to do but I didn’t get paid. Now I can’t pay my car or house payment. I can’t afford to stay alive but my life insurance wouldn’t pay out if I s-word. What am I supposed to do? I don’t know what to do or how to fix it and now I wish I had h@nged myself back when I thought of it.