work was horrible today because of two different customers one Karen yelling at me for not understanding her calling me worthless and stupid and another where I accidentally dropped a customer's bag of apples and he got mad but I said sorry and offered to replace them he said no it's ok, and smiled but what does he do? call and complain about me it made my mood worse because he fucking lied to my face after I said sorry three times and offered new ones, and I've been doing good in terms of happiness but after today not anymore I already got written up because of my mood swings I thought it wasn't affecting me at work but it is, I guess there were times I wouldn't talk at all and one customer accused me of rolling my eyes at them but I don't do that shit ever. my ADHD OCD and anxiety just hitting me hard lately work knows about it now and said they're there for me and thanks for telling them. but I'm worried il get fired because they're an at-will company. I hope I can get my raise in February or something for the every six-month review period you get a 75-cent raise if you earn it my manager told me not to worry about the complaint but I am.. I hate this a lot especially since Karen called me worthless know I'm not but it still hurts to have those things yelled at you. and stupid but she legit made no sense not even my other manager did not understand her. I wanna cry but I can't I feel I need to but I can't. maybe my mood will improve soon idk my mood was good the past few weeks until now I'm also thinking of getting a letter from my doctors so maybe they can't fire me because of my issues especially my nerofibermatotis type 1 which is a neurological disorder