I've probably posted on here before under a different account. I won't go into details about what happened because I've probably made about 500 posts about this situation on Reddit on 500 different subreddits. This took place about a week or so after my 21st birthday. I had a job for about 4 months. I witnessed abuse towards the babies I was working with. I reported it and it all went to hell (for me) from there. I was called a liar, blacklisted, gaslighted, and lost my job.
I went into a deep depression and cried a lot at this time. I cut my hair, bleached and dyed it, and gave myself bangs. I basically fucked up my hair and now it won't hold its curl texture and is thin. I then decided to eat my feelings away instead of coping with them. I gained about 50 pounds. To this day, I still have dreams about the kids from there. I also have nightmares about my old boss, the teachers, and the center. I also think about it every day of the week. No joke I think about what happened when I wake up and when I sleep.
Sometimes I still cry about it, but I've been good with not crying for about 8 months now. I also can't step foot into daycare because I get very anxious when I step into one. Passing a daycare makes me think about what happened. I avoid going to the side of town this daycare is on because it's too much for me. I have now decided that it is time for real change. I have accepted the fact that I have repercussions to deal with (weight loss, hair growth, etc). I am currently seeking therapy for this and have been on a calorie deficit for about a week.
My point posting this? This was not worth the $10/hr I was making. I literally can't believe how much this experience bothers/changed me. I tried to be honest and right, I suffer mentally because of what they did. I am still so bothered by it. Every day I hope to see this center on the news. I hope they get arrested but I know better. Schools cover things up for 30+ years. Parents will never know what I saw. The people who work there will never care what they did to me and the kids.
This experience made me see how terrible the world/people are. They all moved on but I'm still stuck 2 years later. A job is not worth this.