This is my first year of teaching. I’m on a probationary certification, and I’m using the teachworthy program to get certified. I won’t be certified until the end of the year.
I won’t go into details, but I’m completely miserable and I think I’m closer to suicide than I’ve ever been. My students (7th grade) are horrible and I’m so burnt out and stressed out. All day at work I just cry. Then when I get home I cry. Then all weekend I cry. I have panic attacks even when I’m asleep.
I want to resign today but I don’t know if I can. I may completely lose my potential certification (no good cause act) if I quit mid year. My boyfriend makes 17 an hour, and we figured out that if we both made 17 an hour we could afford everything, but only have 300 dollars a month left over. I have a little under 5,000 in savings.
Every day I have told myself I can get through this. I have tried to think positive. My life feels like a living hell and I truly don’t know what to do.