Hello fellow anti-work folks. I come here seeking advice/words of wisdom or motivation or just words. Forgive the formatting and my clunky words, I’m not feeling so well tonight.
I want to start by saying I know so many people have it so much worse, and so many of you are struggling and fighting so hard and i have so much respect. I don’t want to act like i have it the worst. But,
In short, the thought of working makes me suicidal, and actually having a job makes me a legitimate risk to myself. As you may guess, this makes living life kinda hard because I have no money. What do I do?
It’s not so bad all the time because I’m in college. I get some student aid and I’m taking out some federal loans. But unfortunately it’s not enough.
My rent is going to be due again in December. I have $7. Getting $350 in COVID relief money though my school, but I need to put gas in my car and food in my stomach as well as utilities and such, y’all know. I don’t even have nearly enough to cover rent.
I don’t have a job. I’ve worked 2 jobs before, for a few months, before it became too much and I just couldn’t do it.
I doordash every now and then but that feels like pennies.
I’ve been poor my whole life so it didn’t take much to radicalize me, and I’ve been anti-work and craving a homestead-style life since I was 17. So, now, having a job is just absolutely the LAST thing I want.
How do i motivate myself to do it when the threat of homelessness just isn’t enough? How do you all get out of bed and in your cars or bikes or shoes and go to work?