I began work at an ER at a new hospital this January. The team seniors initially seemed welcoming and helpful and the department itself is well run relative to the poorly managed, low resource general environment. But the smiles and reassurances hid a culture of needlessly high expectations, obsessive micro control and just plain annoying Karenism.
I've become increasingly self conscious, feeling like I have to constantly watch my back for a colleague telling me how I'm doing it wrong before even hearing the full story. Wrong in this sense is just not exactly the way they prefer to do it.
I cannot look at my phone for five seconds (when everyone's been attended to and the waiting room is empty) without being told in a “friendly” passive aggressive tone that there's “always work to do.” At the same time, I'm simultaneously given “friendly advice” not to even touch a patient, not even for a pulse or sclera (when all spaces are occupied), unless they're in a bed with the curtains drawn.
Like dude what the fuck do you want? I don't give a shit what any of you like. I give a shit about my patients, some of whom specifically ask for me over you condescending pricks. None have complained that they had to wait 5 fucken seconds longer because I dared not to run to them the moment they walked through the door.
Now that I've gotten it all out, do you have anything to say about this from your perspective? Perhaps something from your own experience or a way to deal with it without wanting to quit.