I have no idea why, but I feel terrible about not going into work tomorrow.
I feel like I have somehow been programmed to value work above my own health. I have no idea how or even when I got to this point.
I left work in tears today, partly from exhaustion of working 100+ hour fortnight's in an incredibly stressful job and partly because I'm wracked with the guilt of possibly letting my team, the team I'm supposed to lead, down.
How do I even retrain my brain to try let this shit go and learn that my mental health is just as important as the patients we see? (for context I work in medical)
Thanks for letting me vent guys.