This feels pathetic to ask only after 2 days of working for this company but,
I got a cleaning job. I have a year's experience with cleaning and desinfection at a healthcare facility. 5 hours a day, small collective, good pay, boss was very helpful and human to everyone. I had to quit this job because of moving across the country (family reasons).
Since then i've been jobless for almost 5 months. I applied to over 20 places since. I found this 8hrs a day cleaning job, mostly sweeping hallways and stairs. It left me feeling so stressed out and confused tho. There are so many things that stressed me out. The bosses watch me all the time, want me to sweep in a very specific (and stupid) way. A lot of stupid uneccesary rules instead of letting me work with my own efficient system i'm used to. My coworkers are all smokers (i have breathing problems since i had cov*d and cig smoke make me naseous af). I struggle with dermatitis on my hands easily and have open sores already. I don't mind callouses but dermatitis really sucks.
And on top of all that the pay is absolutely a joke for 40hrs a week of nonstop cleaning. Literally the lowest you can go legally in my country. I have really mixed feelings since the bosses seemed so nice at the interwiev and my first day. Am i the problem? Am i just being a baby ? I'm stressing out on a saturday evening and i hate it. My anxiety is up to the ceiling. My family especially my mom who houses and feeds me and my brother would be so upset if i quit. Idk what to do. I'm looking for something else already but i'm feeling lost and pathetic, scared and ashamed. Will probably delete this post later.